Thursday, July 7, 2011

Things I did today instead of go over New York civil practice. [video]

Britain's Got Talent won't let me embed this kid's audition video, so click here if you're curious. I think he's most adorable in the audition. The rest of these (or rather, the next two videos) that I could embed are lower quality than the ones you would get from the BGT account, sorry to say.

This (above) is a cover of the song below.
And this is what I did yesterday.
 PvZ action starts around :49.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Meandering thoughts on weight, body positive, and guilt.

Through the magic of the internets, I came across the tumblr site, Stop Hating Your Body. And I've come to a decision about my future weight loss plans.

I'm just not going to weigh myself anymore. I'm not dealing with the numbers well. I doubt I've ever dealt with the numbers well. The only gauge I care to keep track of is not measured by weight. The numbers are bullshit in any event. According to my height, my BMI would be "normal" even if I were down to 95 pounds. Well, you know what, BMI chart? Fuck you.

For everything else I'm about to say: honest to god, I know some websites would flag things as "triggering" and divide up the triggers -- self-harm, anorexia, bulimia, all that. To the best of my self-diagnosis abilities, I have never actually suffered from an eating disorder. Maybe some relatively minor anorexic tendencies in my early 20s, some compulsive overeating here and there in times of stress, but I wouldn't call myself a sufferer. I wouldn't normally consider myself to be "triggered" by, well, anything really. Which isn't to say that I'm not at least minorly affected by certain things. But I don't count myself among those so ill as to need counseling, therapy, intervention, etc.

So I'm just going to talk about what I'm going to talk about. I don't know if any of it is triggering. To be honest, a large part of me doesn't want to devote any more brain power to ED rules, so I'm just going to be honest and see where that takes us. If you're the kind of person who can be triggered (I suppose by anything), don't bother reading on.